Thankyou everyone

Thankyou every single readers of mine, since 2008 till now. HAHAHA! Sorry everyone but I've decided to ditch this pretty blog of mine here, and hop to a better site to blog. I'm no longer activate here, due to the fact it caused me too much unwanted happiness that doesn't belong to me, anymore. Even though i love this site of mine. Kinda of sad bcos i'm super used to using blogger to blog so much stuffs, but not now. But who knows, in a few months time, i'm back here again. HAHAHA! Nevertheless, this blog of mine did a gr8 job for letting me to rant. Hahaha. This will be the last post of mine. Goodnight!

Xoxo,Priscilla(:

Shooting Star, i could really make a wish right now

I always talk about the same old topic, also boring right? I decided to post about my 3D2N's class chalet. As mentioned on my previous post, though not everyone turn up, but i believed is the laughter, joy, fun, jokes that we created & shared. ;)

The girls - Phelicia, Olivia, Rhonda, Miracle, & me. (:

My fav project group - Andre, Rhonda, Miracle, me! Not in picture: Kelly & Shawn ):

Last but not least, 2/4 of the classmates that stay on the first night. (: you guys created the laughter, and the bonding we shared. Have a gr8 holiday ahead. Xoxo to all. (L)

Desmond & me. Bro, when you said "no matter what, you've my support". Fuck, i felt so touched when you told me that. I nearly cried out, really. At my weakest, darkest period of life, your words make me feel a little happier. Thanks! See you when i see you ;)

Rhonda & me. Dear, throughout all these, you really stood by my side, you didn't turn your back on me when i wanted to speak out. You've all the patience to listen to all my nonsense. Thanks dear. You heard what i wanted to speak when i'm drunk. I just wanted to say, thankyou being there for me when i need a pair of listening ears and cry out loud so badly. You never fail to cry with me. Just want say, i love you, & thanks! See you when i see you. ;)

Leonard & me. Thanks didi, for all your words that make me feel better. Your lame jokes, actions never fail to make me wanna bash you up. You were the first who said "you were acting too strong". I thought no one notice, but you were the one who told, then came to realise, indeed i'm putting a strong front. Thankyou for being there when i needed to speak. See you when i see you. ;)

Nevertheless, thanks to wenli bbyg, miracle dear, douglas didi, kelly bbyg, zhixian mummy, kelvin sis, jamie sis, lionel sis and everyone who stood by me, never once turn your back on me. I appreciated so much that you guys are there for me. You all listened to all my nonsense, give me advice, cheer me up no matter what. Know what? I really love you guys, without you all, i might had die somewhere. I can't promise you guys anything, but what i'll really do is, at least make myself feel happier than before. Xoxo.

I came across this post on a particular blog, & find it quite suitable my situation now. "If you love him, you hold on till he ask you to let go, till when he ask you to let go, you let go willingly, and when he ask you to let go, he knows what he wants. and not because he thinks that he's hurting you though he really is."

Well, i find it quite true, he didn't ask me to let him go. At least this the thing i could tell you guys, till the day he tell me face to face, to ask me let him go, only then i'll let him go willingly. You guys may say i stubborn, but this the least i could do for my love life, and the small little thing i could do for no one else, but him.

My love may not be as strong as any girls out there, my relationship may had fail, but at least i tried, i didn't give up halfway, i still carry on the love i used to have for him. There isn't any past tense in love, is either you love or you never. I can tell everyone, i love you, J. There isn't any past tense in this love i had for you. If you still come here & read (doubt so you do), i didn't learn to move on when i was told by you. Put yourself in my shoes, you'll understand. Goodnight.

Xoxo,Priscilla(:

The thought of you, kill me instantly

Hi, i spent my 3D2N's class chalet. Jokes, fun, laughter, sad over there. Though not everyone came, but i believe is the bonding we created and shared. ;) at that moment, i wish you were there. Look! I'm so weak, sigh! ):

I don't know when the last time, after we broke up, i cried terribly. It happened on mon's night. Feel so horrible, but i'm thankful to those who listened to what i said, but nothing better than having you with me. Sadly, you're not. & i really detest myself for writing so many rubbish here, and yet my little heart is not healing. Few weeks had passed, i wish i'm stronger, but apparently, i haven't learn to move on. Idk how long all these gonna end, idk how long it gonna took for you to realise i still love you. Idk how my heart gonna heal. Nevertheless, i sincerely thank you to all (you know who you're) who stood by me, listened to me be it face to face, messages, whatsapp, twitter, fb. Even it's not 24/7, at least you guys never turn your back on me when i needed ppl to talk to. ^^ to those who're back with your partner, be it what kind of reasons that brought you both back, congrats, you guys deserved to be loved by your boy/girlfriends. I'm envy, but then still giving my blessing to all. (:

Dear boy, how're you doing? Are you doing fine? I still wish you're doing good. I always have the urge to remind you to take care of yourself. After tying one long message, i backspace. Damn! I don't have the courage to let you know how much i misses you, how much i always wanted to let you know, do take care of yourself.

I really detest myself, looking so horrible, terrible. Sometimes, a text message from you can brightened up my day. But it doesn't seem to be happen. Sigh. Fuck, i really miss you badly. :\ do you heard me?

Xoxo,Priscilla(:

random night

I don't know what to post. Hahaha. Been enjoying my days away. Sleeping, drama, eat, drink, hang out and it goes on for like a week? My awesome, relax life. & i've been eating non stop at ungodly hour, this is so terrible. Damn.... I wish i'm skinny, so i won't be afraid of gaining weight. This is making me miserable lah. Eh chey. Hahaha. September, oh september, you been nice and bad to me. Nice bcos i enjoying my holiday while everyone are working. Bad bcos you made me miss him so much, that at times, i cried myself to sleep. Aw, tell me, is there any better, and efficient ways to forget him? Sigh oh sigh.

All those days passed, many thoughts flashed through my mind, if only we both let down our ego, give in to each other during all those darkest period, will it be better? The problem lies in both of us. We fall too hard. My friends told me, i acted too strong during this period, i admit i was, bcos i thought i could lead a better life w/o you, as time goes by, it proved me wrong. I couldn't be happy w/o you, perhaps you can lead a life better off w/o me. Days & nights w/o me, are you feeling better, happier, lively? Are you leading a life you suppose to lead? Is this the outcome we both wanted, when we promise to walk together, hand in hand to have a future together? I may sounded irritating, keep posting this and that. But bcos i started to keep my feeling to my own, i dare not open myself to anyone, let alone friends. I hide my feelings, bcos i know once i talk about this issue, i'll cry. :\ i'm not strong, but wish to be. I wish, you still drop by here and take a look how my life right now. The day you walked away, i clear the mess you left. I'm not trying to seek for pity from outsiders, and i don't need people to stand in my shoes, & understand the feeling of losing someone dearly. All i could ever said till now, is my heart still love you, even though my mind told me to let go. I follow my heart, i still love you. Just want you to know, i never give up, still holding the hope you're coming back again.

Xoxo,Priscilla(:

Even Heaven Cries

This is cooooool shit can! Damn nice, but is $240. ): Argh, this is the sex! Hahaha. Can i've this as my 21st birthday? ;)

& hell man, this is also the sex! Hahaha. I wanted this very long ago, this is also the sex lahhh! Hellokitty. Omg omg. Melt my heart. Eh chey! I can't wait to save money & get one. I know i've been saying for like zillion years ago. AHAHAHA. No moolah ):

Aww, really melt my heart, like seriously! )':

Well, hi blogger, thanks for letting me rant so much, still i miss him very much, i still have the same feeling i used to have for him. Does he still remember me that i exist? I miss his text messages, really. Sigh. Can't deny the fact i still want him back. Nobody knows that i somehow no longer can be strong anymore. Sigh, i wish i can have the chance to call him babyboy again. Hahaha, sadly, he also can't see what, doubt so he'll be even so free to see my nonsense. ): argh. this is so heartbroken. Thanks sexypolka twitter space for me to rant from the day he showed me attitude, till broke up, till now. But i don't feel better, i still want him back in my life. I've so much things to tell him, so much things to do together as one with him. Like USS, polaroid, and the list goes on. ): Boy, i'm still hoping the day you'll be back, sincerely me.

Xoxo,Priscilla(:

Because You Loved Me

Hah. Just nice, mom's room, is playing this song - Because You Loved Me. That was the song, we both used to listen to, but not now. Few months down the road, will you still remember what you said to me? Will you still tell me, you still love me and don't want to be with me? This sentence stabbed right through my heart, really. The vows, the promises, the words literally stab into my heart. Sorry, i'm not strong as what you guys see, i'm not brave enough to let all these go. Sorry people, put yourself into my shoes, the pain i'm undergo now.一旦失去,我也只能认输,只能 后悔. Seriously, what else can i really said, and do? I don't need any returns, all i need was a hug, this explained it all. All i ever need was just a simple sincerely care and concern from you to show you still really care, if this is so difficult, pls stab through my heart, FUCK!

0458AM now, good morning. I'm heading to bed now.

Xoxo,Priscilla(:

Aku Cinta Kau

7.9, suppose to be the 3rd month. But here, i'm being stuck alone, having you moved on, still want to have a happy and nice 3rd with you right after exam. Up till today, i still feel the heartache, not bcos you left, but bcos you left without having me to explain what i want said. Idk what else to do when all these were different. Till i saw this on fb, making me even heartbroken that after all you wanted was a single, carefree life, and not me playing a part in your life. You wanted to do in your ways and not mine. We're suppose to build the future together, we're ..... What's now?

& the picture describe my every now & then feelings. ): i haven't move on, i know you had. Once again, happy suppose to be 3rd for us, and hope you're doing fine right now. I didn't change anything in my phone, i choose to remain it. Goodnight.
luv, Priscilla(:

I want a mini 3rd month with you ):

Leonard Toh really can made me LOL at this. Good job, buddy! Hahaha. We both are corn lovers, but not till the extend like him. Like wtf! Name his whatsapp as CORN. Faint. And know what, i havent start on EPL revision, whereby exam is tomorrow. Fuck, no motivation too. Sigh. ): But last lap to go, so just shall study at 1am, and tahan till 3am. Then sleep. Ok, set.

Well, usually on 5th or 6th im busy preparing and doing smtg for you, sadly to say, 7sep, i couldn't have a chance to do for you, and celebrate together with you. How're you leading your life now? Are you doing well without me? Are you happy? I wanted to have a spam of taking polaroid with you, i wanted to bake smtg for you. ): Do you still make a little small effort to come here and read? Hah. I'm thinking too much, again. Thinking you still come and read all my nonsense. Every night without fail, before i sleep, i'll look at those photos and smile sweetly to myself, sounded silly but this is me (:

Probably, shall do some edit of the photos as 3rd month for myself? Hah. Goodnight babyboy, J. You let go of this, probably you could find someone better than me, someone who love you more than i do. Someone could do more than i do. Sigh. I wanted to explain so much, but wasn't given any chance.

Xoxo,Priscilla(:

We could have it all

I'm in a mid of preparing for examination which is on 5 & 6 sep, in the mid of battling my heartaches, in the mid of amending my heart back on my own, in the mid of getting berserk soon, if i cont acting strong. I need be strong, hahaha! Coming 7sep, what i do?! I've no idea. :\ i'm going abandon this site real soon. I don't want to rant here and people out there thinking i'm seeking attention. People don't know how tough am i suffering now, esp i'm undergo one of the worst stages right now. So stfu if you don't know about me well enough. I'm not a heartbreaker, i'm not someone who hurt people feelings that easily too. If you think i'm, so be it then. I can't bother how people think of me anymore. Anyway, all those sluts, bitches should jolly well just mind their own businesses.

To sum up, i'm not a good girlf he looking for, and he deserved someone much better than me k?! I chose to wait for him is my problem k?!

Hahaha. Home Alone, so back to study now. K bye! Can't wait for tues, 6sep to arrive! Hell yeah.

Xoxo,Priscilla(: